Life around here is being taken one day at a time. I'm continuing to have problems with Molly and her tantrums. If anyone has any pointers or a good book I should read, please let me know. From what I've read so far, apparently 20% of toddlers have regular tantrums, particularly when they are dealing with big life changes. Interestingly enough, tantrums are also exacerbated by allergies and delayed speech, both which Molly deals with. It's just absolutely emotionally draining dealing with it AND having two new babies. I suppose I have to remember the other 95% of the time when she's sweet and completely enjoyable! Gotta love that face...
And then today I've made a difficult decision to start weaning the twins. Nursing is not working out very well, and we're having a variety of problems. The primary issue is that my "supply" is not meeting the "demand" of two babies, despite my extra efforts. So EVERY time I nurse I still have to give them bottles after. That makes feeding take FOREVER. Interestingly enough, this has been a really emotional decision for me to make. I feel a bit like a failure. I mean, other women have been able to nurse twins so why can't I? I'm also a little angry at the hospital's recommendation to supplement the babies so much without getting an "exit strategy". But my logical side figures that I was a formula fed baby and I turned out just peachy. Anyway, I figure that it's better for my sanity if I just let it go knowing that they got the major benefit of nursing in the first month of their life.
And then today, my entire extended family (my sisters, their families, and my parents) went on a family vacation to New York City, and then on a 12-day cruise to the Caribbean. I definitely wouldn't trade the twins for a cruise, but I must admit that I'm a little sad I'm not with them (not that we could have afforded it anyways). I do hope they have a fabulous time! I just hope they miss us TERRIBLY! :)
4 comments:
Hang in there Amy... Since you are going to stop nursing (Which nobody blames you!!! Don't beat yourself up about that!) and can't make it to the caribbean... When do you want me to bring over pina coladas?
I know that you are sad about the nursing, but at least you lasted a month! Don't compare yourself to other women--you are wonderful! I agree with DeAnna--a nice alcoholic beverage might be in order!
Having to stop nursing sucks... even though you are making a wise and thoughtful decision. The babies will be more than fine--so don't let any of us guilt you, OK?
Not going on a Caribbean cruise with family for 12 days might not be missing the boat... they are all going to miss you tons and feel guilty and will be sending lots of love your way--you'll be able to milk this one for a long time!
You do have to love that face--though it has to be frustrating to know how best to love and parent when the TT is happening. Praying for wisdom and patience, strength and endurance. You are such an awesome mom.
And a new cousin... How special! I see lots of fun times ahead for those 5 kids! Kick the Can, Hide n Seek, Pen Pals, (Blog Pals...) Maybe they will tweet each other!
Amy- Erase any thought of failure from your mind - you're doing awesome! And, always remember - there are NO RULES when it comes to twins, except one: do whatever works! as for the tantrums, ugh...we deal with those, too. last week I put headphones on while I was making dinner to neutralize the amount of noise and fussing in my house. (:
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